First class intervention: Panic lives here!!

I have to confess that it’s very difficult to build a daily blog but it’s okay because I’m really happy with my school, my coach and with my students.
1st ESO B is my class and I love it! Its schedule is a little bit harder than the other term, 1st ESO A, but the children are lovely. At first I was very afraid because I saw them as small monsters ready to attack; I know it was a huge problem but I couldn’t do anything to change my mind and there I was, trembling as a jelly dessert. But now everything is different because I realised they’re just children and they see me as an adult, a future teacher and that’s the first step to improve my self esteem as an educator.

I’ve started my participation on November 6th and it has been very strange experience because I’ve done lots of materials to supply my fears in front of the class. Students are children but they aren’t silly, they notice everything! The night before, I prepared a beautiful hand-made watch very cute in different colours. Everything was alright, the watch was ready and I was ready too but…what about how to implement the class? Oh, my goodness! The day before I absolutely forgot about how to check the hours with the kids so I started to panic (what a surprise…) and I couldn’t say a word in English because suddenly I forgot how to speak the language! It was awful.

Thanks God Victoria, my coach, was supervising everything and she notice perfectly I was in trouble (easy to see) so she helped me and saved before It was a mess. I had lots of papers, flashcards… (I repeat: A huge disaster). I finally finished my horrible intervention feeling stupid and not capable to develop a single activity. I was very afraid ‘bout what my coach was thinking ‘bout myself as a future teacher. I was extremely worried about my productivity in lessons and my helping in class. My thought was that my participations were stopping the teacher’s rhythm. But finally the light came to me (mmhh…not religious!!) Victoria was so kind to me; she told me it had been a great day!! So…wow!! I just needed to improve my “gestió del temps” and not to approach too much to the children so I would control everything without moving myself.

So at the end it was a terrific day!!